When Pushing Through Isn’t The Answer

I was home recently, and a family friend and I started discussing how she gets tired quickly in situations that are stressful. She starts to get overwhelmed and then very, very sleepy.

While we’re both introverts in the sense that we need time alone to feel whole and resourced, her tiredness is beyond that. It’s very linked to stress, and it comes fast. It’s a trauma response, in that her existing emotional overwhelm is being triggered by the stressful situation. This pattern is very uncomfortable for her, and sometimes she gets so uncomfortable that it affects the entire group of people around her.

We were sitting in the living room, reflecting on it. “When you notice it’s happening and you feel the fear,” I said. She sighed, chiming in, completing my sentence with the obvious cultural trope, “…do it anyway.”

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Grief and Co-Creating

Grief

I’ve been wondering what to share… am I up for sharing? Is the inner work too cloudy to share on the out side?

We had a death in the family on 8 April. By the time this goes out, we will be in full swing, celebrating the un-timely, peaceful death of my beloved brother at 64yo.

It’s been devastating.
After my nephew told me over the phone, I sat down where I was and started crying.
That went on for a few days.
Even on trail runs, stopping and sitting down on the ground to just weep. Sadness.

When I connect with him I get expansion, freedom, relief. He’s not in chronic pain anymore. This feels wonderful.

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Why You Feel Worse Before You Feel Better

Guided meditation mentioned in this video: Sensational Awareness

Hello, Beautiful Souls.

I want to tell you a little bit about why is it when we’re healing, that things get worse instead of better—or rather, why they get worse before they get better.

This happens really consistently in my personal healing work, and when I’m working with clients. It happens so often, and it’s so unexpected and disorienting, that it’s worth talking about.

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Healing The High Cost of Blame

Hello, Beautiful Souls.

Many of us have learned the importance of taking responsibility for what’s happening in our lives… for the very practical reason that then we can do something about it!

When I find myself blaming someone for something that’s a sign that there’s something inside I’m not wanting to face. When I calm down enough, I sit with it (do some kind of practice that helps me explore what’s inside, see below for a free guided meditation you can use for this).

Why do we blame others for our problems in the first place? Certainly, many of us were taught to and frankly, it feels good to receive sympathy when things are going bad.

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Abundance Depends On What You’re Paying Attention To Vs What You’re Attracting

Hello beautiful souls.

What if we talk about the Law of Attention versus the Law of Attraction.
This is maybe a subtle shift. It feels really profound to me though. So first of all, what am I talking about?

The first time I heard about Law of Attention, it was explained to me like this: The Law of Attraction is “I’m an energetic being. I’m vibrating a certain way and so I’m going to attract things that are vibrating similarly to me.” That’s the law of attraction. That makes sense.

The Law of Attention is, if there are 360 degrees of things to pay attention to, and I can’t pay attention to all of them at once, I’m going to focus and filter for certain things. Those are the things I’m paying attention to. Those are the things that are going to be in my field of perception, the things that I (appear to be) manifesting. And this is the Law of Attention.

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Resistance As A Protective Layer Over Trauma

Hello Beautiful Souls.

Resistance.
Resistance is one of those things we all have, whether we like it or not.

It doesn’t feel great, and gets in the way of doing things in life, so we vilify it. The general idea is that we need to get rid of it, and if we don’t we’re doomed to have it forever, because ‘resistance persists.’

But why is resistance here in the first place?
Maybe I’m resisting walking up stairs, because I’m afraid of falling down. We might feel like it’s stupid thing to resist this, but here’s the thing: your resistance protecting you.

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Your Inner Critic Needs Healing, Too

Hello Beautiful Souls.

Ah, those inner voices that bully us into submission… like the inner critic that says, “You’re stupid for being worried! There’s nothing to worry about!” Those voices are really challenging to deal with and I feel like sometimes we don’t realize that they are actually part of the package that needs healing…
Yes, the parts of us that are worried unnecessarily need healing, but so does the critic! And that can be tricky to realize when the critic sounds so reasonable…

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